I’ve been adding more meditation time to my life and this has been a wonderful decision. I was deeply encouraged by a dear friend (Thanks Gina!) to pursue this and it has helped me in so many ways. I am feeling less stressed. I am feeling more grounded. My dreams at night are rich and vivid! There are so many good things.
In my work with a coach last year and in my meditation this year, I have come across many tools and phrases that I use to help keep me centered and feeling whole. But in all those tools and phrases, for me one has stood head and shoulders above the rest. I simply tell myself, “Jeanette, you are enough.”
I often need to tell myself this phrase over and over. Because throughout my life, I have often felt I wasn’t enough. I wasn’t tall enough or thin enough or smart enough or rich enough. I wasn’t sexy enough or talented enough or kind enough or a good enough friend, daughter, sister or wife.
And in my life when I have felt the deepest despair, I wonder if I am even under there. Under the awards and the press clippings and the degrees and the friends list and the family ties and the wardrobe and the public smile. Under the niceness and the smile I share even when I feel like crying am I under all that? Is there a me there somewhere?
But through my meditation work, I am starting to understand that I am a joyous sufficiency. I am enough. Not my money or my work or my friends lists or my accomplishments. Not my friends lists or my awards or my photographs or my resume or my portfolio. I am enough. Just me. Whatever I bring, or do, or desire or act upon. I AM just fine. I AM.
I share this because I hear you. I hear you when you are frustrated and sad and feel like you will never live up to what you think the world wants you to be. I hear you when you fail yet again to capture the perfect selfie that will convince you that you have convinced the entire world you are okay. And for those moments, whenever they come up, I want to say something.
Breathe. You are okay. You are enough. You ARE.
Jeanette DePatie (AKA The Fat Chick)
P.S. Want me to come talk to your group about the importance of understanding “joyous sufficiency”? Email me at jeanette at the fat chick dot com. Learn more here.